3911miles.

These past few months have been wonderful. I'm so proud of us for being more compromising and understanding and so far we only had less than 5 fights, given that you have been extremely patient and good tempered towards me. I never loved fights with you - I always feel so guilty for making you feel apologetic and not being able to sleep well after I'm done being mad; I can't bear another.

Yes with you being far away from me, you can't exactly be here to fix all my problems if I need you to, but I guess every girl needs a boyfriend like him? He's always reminding me that I won't have to face the problems alone and still tries to somehow fix my dilemma or difficult situations I'm facing. Or always reassuring me even if I don't jealous or anything, and drowning me with cheesy nothings. 

I was in bangkok for 4 days last week and though I was happy to be having a time of my life there, I couldn't wait to come back to Sg just so the time difference would only be of +2hours than +3hours(bkk) and that I could reply him more often than I'm in bkk, when I'm busy eating or shopping. Pretty weird huh? I guess I've somehow grown overly attached to him I always think of him or for him, in everything I do. Be it walking pass a random shop selling socks, I would walk in and get some cute socks for him because he loves them. 

Spending every day with that someone really does makes life different, be it he's with me in Sg or if he's away for the time being. Communication is the most important for us and I'm glad we don't have a problem keeping up with that because I would always get so excited seeing his texts come up on my phone. Love really does change a person, and love really does makes you a completely different person; love makes you do things that you don't expect yourself to be doing, and love makes you see that even the smallest thing could be the most beautiful, or even the simplest word could meant the most, or that even a tiny bit of effort could be his/her strength in believing that all of that's happening is worth every moment. 

Thank you for being my constant pillar of strength. 

I hope I've also gave you strength to live by each day blessed, and happy, just like me.

Xo. 

2 more weeks baby. Just 14 days more. 

Chanced upon a really old photo of us having my birthday dinner at Ritz Carlton last year while clearing my photo album last night. You know those nights where you just reminisce everything you were while growing up to become your present self today... There was a night I told him how this would have been easier for the both of us if we weren't so overly attached to each other before he left Sg; or how we could have stayed being friends till he's back and we can figure things out from there; yep..... its one of those nights where I was throwing my tantrums because I was so exhausted from work and so sick of being alone most of the time other than spending time with friends -- then again, I've reached the stage where I rather go everywhere or do everything and anything with him and yes I love hanging out with my friends too, but I feel more and more sian knowing that he's not with me, and that he's not gonna be able to spend time or be with me for AT LEAST ONCE during this period sigh :(

Then again, all the shitty unbearable months have flew by so past and it's my long awaited month - May already!!!!! Looking forward to a trip with my best friend once I end my contract in Singtel on 17th May, taking a break from work and shit and be a sloth for another 2 weeks once I'm back before I'm gna be on the plane to Aussie to meet him. Fucking finally. 

No doubt we've not been skyping as much as before because I told him I didn't want it to make it like a chore or a scheduled  thing if not it's going to be a dreadful and unwilling thing in the long run. So, we would randomly be on skype to talk or just a random whatsapp call when I am so tired or when I'm facing issues and feel all helpless. Few nights ago, I felt so helpless about something and called him and the first thing he said was "omg! OMG! OMGGG!" being all so happy that I called, hahahaha this qt :') Heh, sorry there wasn't much of a us or a 'we miss each other so much' kind of post like the previous posts; thought since I'm here I could give a little update on our progress surviving.. 80 days apart(and counting) from each other; or of how we grow emotionally stronger throughout this 'what-people-called-impossible-kind-of-relationship' as days passed. 

Xo.